i think i am moving my blog……..

i do wonder where you are,
but for now,
i can only find it in Muse’s song ’starlight’

this is a fantastic video, a piano adaptation of the song

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don’t know if it’s worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let’s conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I’ll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

And I’ll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
I just wanted to hold

blog or not to blog anymore

my head is pounding like mad, while my brain is working non-stop

the amount of work, things that i got to think, decipher, pause, …i really dun know what else to add….

sleep does not come easily to me
not reading my blog does not simply shut everything out
while one can be stubborn, how much can one really be?

to block things out, we need to find some other things to do
maybe work, hobbies or simply a blank sheet of paper

i am just writing rubbish out now….
feeling damn stress at work

u are there,
but just simply standing very very far away

heard a new song just now in the pub,

its call ‘ang jing le’

lyrics:
An Jing Le - Silenced

Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo zhan zai zhe li
There’s only the violin left to stand here with me

Meng xiang zhong shu yu wo men de hun li
The marriage between us that I’ve always dreamt of

Que cheng le chan ren jie hun jin xing qu
Has become the tune of someone walking down the aisle alone

Zai zhe chang ai qing jiao li de ba he li Ai wo hai shi ai ni
In this love tug-of-war, to love me or to love you

Ni xuan ze le zi ji
You chose yourself

Sa jiao de, ke ai de, nu ren de, ai ku de,
Poutingly, Cutely, Girlishly, Loving to cry

zhao pian li, ceng jing de, dou shi ni xi huan de
All the photos contains memories that you like

Ru jin wo hai zai yuan di Ni que zou hui ni de ji yi
Till today I’m still at the starting point, but you have already walked back into your memories

Ni shuo wo ai ni tai duo Jiu kuai yao ba ni yan mo
You said I loved you too much, so much so that it’s drowning you

Ni hai pa xing fu duan zhan yi miao jiu beng luo
You’re scared that happiness will ebb after only a second

Fen kai shi yi zhong jie tuo Rang ni hao hao de xiang guo
Breaking up is a form of relief; it allows you to think through carefully

Wo xiang yao de na pian tian kong Ni shi bu shi neng gou gei wo
Can you give me that life that I want

Ni shuo wo gei ni tai duo Jue bu neng gei wo shen me
You said I gave you too much, that you couldn’t give me anything

Fen bu qing qi qing cheng nuo yong heng huo mi huo
Can’t tell between fervour, promises, eternity or temptation

Ai qing shi yi dao shang kou
Love is like a wound

Wo men ge zi ku tong
Let’s endure the pain ourselves

Chen mo shi wo zui hou wen rou
What is my final act of gentleness

Shi yin wei wo tai ai ni
Is because I love you too much

zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo zhan zai zhe li
There’s only the violin left to stand here with me

meng xiang zhong shu yu wo men de hun li
The marriage between us that I’ve always dreamt of

an jing le zai wo zhen bian de meng li
Has been silenced in my night-long dream

wo zhi dao xiang ai yuan ben jiu bu rong yi
I know that mutual love is not easy from the start

ai bu shi yi jia yi
Love is not just one plus one

nu li jiu you jie ju
You won’t always get results even if you work hard

sa jiao de ke ai de nian ren de ai ku de
Poutingly, Cutely, Girlishly, Loving to cry

zhao pian li ceng jing de dou shi ai zhe ni de
From all the photos we’ve taken it can be seen how much I once loved you

lian jia de lei hai wen re que mei you ren wo wo de shou
The tears on my cheeks are still warm, yet there’s no one holding my hand

Ni shuo wo ai ni tai duo Jiu kuai yao ba ni yan mo
You said I loved you too much, so much so that it’s drowning you

Ni hai pa xing fu duan zhan yi miao jiu beng luo
You’re scared that happiness will ebb after only a second

Fen kai shi yi zhong jie tuo Rang ni hao hao de xiang guo
Breaking up is a form of relief; it allows you to think through carefully

Wo xiang yao de na pian tian kong Ni shi bu shi neng gou gei wo
Can you give me that life that I want

Ni shuo wo gei ni tai duo Jue bu neng gei wo shen me
You said I gave you too much, that you couldn’t give me anything

Fen bu qing qi qing cheng nuo yong heng huo mi huo
Can’t tell between fervour, promises, eternity or temptation

Ai qing shi yi dao shang kou
Love is like a wound

Wo men ge zi ku tong
Let’s endure the pain ourselves

Chen mo shi wo zui hou wen rou
What is my final act of gentleness

Shi yin wei wo tai ai ni
Is because I love you too much

be more understanding
save more money
less shopping (but i will still shop lah)
exercise more often

more to come

to blog or not to blog anymore

i am nothing

i think i am a totally irrational person
i think i am too emo
i think i have TOO GOOD AN IMAGINATION
i think i THINK TOO MUCH
i think i am TOTALLY not a LOGICAL PERSON
i think that I THINK TOO MUCH x *insert a HUGE number*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and you know what?
when U THINK TOO MUCH,
u start to go CRAZY